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i learned how to love without expecting anything in return. for a while it felt good, but soon enough i had to stop. WHY? because the more i love the person, the more i lose myself, and the saddest part of it all is finding myself again, when i already know that i can no longer be WHOLE. well, that's because PART OF ME WENT ASTRAY WITH THE VERY PERSON I HAD TO FORGET...
Just call me MAYNE...
I LIKE:
Meeting people
Window shopping (alone)
Shopping (with friends)
Eating
Studying
Reading
Watching ADMU and UST games
Classical music
Matt Long
Chad Michael Murray
Tom Welling
James Lafferty (and his look-a-like..haha!)
IAN SOMERHALDER [oh Boone!]
The guy whose name I already know *hug!*
I LOVE:
Talking
Sleeping
Hanging out with my chums
The UST field
Fireworks
Anything BLUE in color
POWERHOUSE
My room
Myself…
Here's my box.. ~TAG! TAG! TAG!~


..meet my new crushie..
{{MORE OF IAN!!! *cLick!*}}
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PHOTOS? CLICK HEREet moi. sans toi. je suis de predu.
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The Stoics define love as the endeavor to form a friendship inspired by beauty…
Perhaps they were right in putting love into books…perhaps it could not live anywhere else…
When I know things are not meant for me, I learn to let go. It does not mean I'm weak, but I'm just showing how STRONG I am to fight the urge of wanting something I am not supposed to have...
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**my Boone**
...but still i see the tears from your eyes, maybe i'm just not the one for you...
Heaven bent to take my hand And lead me through the fire Be the long awaited answer To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best But somewhere along the way I got caught up in all there was to offer And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent Love was raw and young We believed that we could change ourselves The past could be undone But we carry on our backs the burden Time always reveals The lonely light of morning The wound that would not heal It's the bitter taste of losing everything That I have held so dear.
I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bent to take my hand Nowhere left to turn I'm lost to those I thought were friends To everyone I know Oh they turned their heads embarassed Pretend that they don't see But it's one missed step You'll slip before you know it And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen... I have sunk so low I have messed up Better I should know So don't come round here And tell me I told you so...
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
*How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
http://bluishxvii.multiply.com/
Posted at 11:12 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
2 sleepovers in a week, that's record breaking!
so, ayon. di pa din ako bawi sa tulog. last friday-saturday after
exams, may overnight kami at jj's. i was wide awake all the night,
considering na exam day prior to that, which by the way was a crappy
day. hahaha. inatake ako ng last exam day syndrome. in short, tinamand
ako. so there. gumawa ako ng protocol, at technically, wala akong
tulog, literal.
tuesday. metro bar event. haha. i was wearing what i call my
cheerleader outfit. FEU cheerleader. haha! kasi green and yellow
yung top ko. then my white skirt. grabe. feeling ko nga nagwala ako
dun. haha! baka di na ko i galang ng lower batch. the good thing about
this is naka 2 points ako! hahaha! yeah! 0 ka teng. tsk tsk! you should
have made your move. charoosh! as if nman! bsta, naku, me and my
hottie, that could have been us. nyehnyeh! anyhoo. yun nga, i had
fun..super.
wednesday, management seminar. i probably humiliated myself by being
the moderator in the open forum. wala akong ginawa dun, nagpa-cute
lang! haha! so the morning was a semi-toxic job, and i fell asleep in
the afternoon session, ignoring the professor beside me. haha! strong.
tulog tlga ako. di ko na kaya eh, inatake ako ng narcolepsy. wala akong
paki alam kung si sir dante ang ang speaker! nyehnyeh!
so, thursday. hmmm.. ano nga ba? ah, absent ako ng etar! haha!
tamaders. and i woke up late. im proud to say that first time kong di
pumasok dahil tinamad ako! whoa! 4th year na nga ako. haha!
yesterday, i was in a warfreak mode, i think i scared the hell out of
some one! =) di ko ma-contain eh! grabe, i was hurting badly -- not for
me but for a friend. and hell i care about the arguments - it is not
valid hunny. hmmm...we'll see.
i heard mass kahapon. i almost passed out sa init at sikip ng santisimo. after that, carpark mcdo kmi.
know what? ggraduate na ko, pero kinikilabutan pa rin ako pag naririnig
ko yung drums ng ust. it gives me a sense of school spirit.
GOOD LUCK TO THE UST SALINGGAWI DANCE TROUPE!!
IT'S THE CHEERDANCE COMPETITION TOMORROW!
GO FOR FIVE!!!
EYO-EYO! U-S-T!!!
Posted at 09:50 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
yesterday's question & statement
mayne...ano nangyari?!? at mayne...talo ateneo ha?!
ok?! di ko rin alam eh! ahahaha! =) wow. im beginnin to make fun of
this. plus..pati si rai nakiki-chris tiu na rin! wow, mabenta! kamusta
nman yun?? kung si chris kaya ang i-boy toy auction nmin..magkano kaya
highest bidder?!
ayun. it was jona's bday yesterday... and our surprise? boylet! hahaha!
it was a perfect moment..a perfect crime even! biruin mo, naglakad kami
sa kalagitnaan ng araw, walang payong...para lang bumili ng bulaklak sa
dangwa! pucha...after nun, i started sneezing. ang baho pa namin. amoy
araw. but it was all worth it. =) ang galing ng execution nten gurls!!!
and oh, while i was waiting for the gurls at nescafe yesterday,
evangelista passed by. nagkatinginan kami and un -- or probably more of
subconsciously, nairapan ko ata sya. hahahaha! bitter?!!?
oh well, win your last few games, and for sure, final four tayo...
tigers tigers fight fight fight...
Posted at 07:17 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
huhu, first loss. sa ust pa. hrmf. asar talo ako nito bukas. kamusta nman yun?!
the only good thing is that chris played really well -- and lots of cam
exposures. yeah! he had cramps nga lang during the last 2 minutes, and
he was even limping at one time. =) and jai is back in the ball game.
apparently, it was a viral infection, and not dengue. buti nlng. haha.
=) a.v.i. sakit ng mga nasa pedia ward. bebe tlga! =)
so, they wont make it straight to the finals, and ust has bigger
chances of making it to the final four..thus, bigger chances for us too
to watch the game! yey! hope it falls on a weekend near my bday, and
ateneo wins..so that'd be a really nice bday gift..unlike the past 2
years. rarr.
nwei, it was really a nice game. rationalizing of course. hmf. lost my appetite to study.
lam ko na kaya pala i had fever (38.0C) this morning. pangitain. hahaha!
Posted at 07:01 pm by cyanotic
..now what??!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
london, paris maybe tokyo...
they need to go, they need to get away tonight.
PARTY MODE! pero exams muna. oh my hottie. wala pa kong outfit for the
5th, but i want to keep it plain, simple, yet hot. =) hahaha! as if
nman noh? eh mga taga nursing din andun. haha. you get to see the
studious party wild. =) this is my first, and apparently, my last
acquaintance party. geesh.
kaya plug ko na rin.
UST NURSING ACQUAINTANCE PARTY 2006: STEADY LANG.
SEPTEMBER 5, 2006, that's the Tuesday after our prelims... PARTY STARTS
AT 6PM. TICKETS AT PHP200.00. OUTSIDERS ARE WELCOME - TICKETS AT THE
SAME PRICE. PARTY TILL YOU DROP... AND CHALLENGE YOUR BIORHYTHM --
CLASSES AND DUTIES ...AND SEMINARS FOR THE SENIORS THE NEXT DAY. FUN
PART: STAYING UP FOR MORE THAN 24 HOURS, AND RECEIVING YOUR EXAM
RESULTS THE NEXT DAY. DRESS CODE: HOTNESS. BETTER BE THERE, COZ IT HAPPENS ONLY ONCE A YEAR.
.
Posted at 10:28 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
geesh - i wanna fall in love with yah!
aaaah! grabe! ang bangis ng game! i
wish (again) i could have watched it LIVE! oh Chris. =) 21 points..that
is awesome! plus, i super love ur smile after your third 3-pointer!
hahaha! grabe mr. cameraman! ang galing mo kumuha ng angulo! =)
and, as mentioned in my super short entry - which by the way i made
during the first quarter break, GET WELL SOON JAI!!! =) they need more
gunners like you... =)
yeah! ONE BIG FIGHT!
Posted at 04:26 pm by cyanotic
..now what??!
jai's dx: dengue!
get well soon.
Posted at 02:37 pm by cyanotic
..now what??!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
hell with the criterion!!
now i have to take the retest due to
a 15/25 iR quiz...among with other 30+ classmates. geesh, i miss SD.
hrmmmf. if i pass the retest, i will get a grade of 75%...rarrrr. kahit
ma-perfect ko yun, 75% pa rin. nakakainis! kayod tlga.
so, long weekend. i have a line-up of things to do, one of which is my
badminton session with chai on monday...sana matuloy. i have 3 weeks to
lose weight for the metro event. =) yeah! excited na ko. hotness.
so, ano nga ba? the college is still busy.. and some students are
actually suffering due to profs not attending classes... goodie.
exams are fastly approaching. unfortunately, nasa adjustment stage pa rin ako.
Posted at 11:39 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
*burp!* just had my bfast.
hello, hello. ayan, update. =)
basically, nothing really happend in my life for the past...uh,
ilang weeks... just helped out in the open forum, and rallied in
morayta. and oh, yeah, got a glimpse of myself on national televison.
kewl.
so...what?!? uhhh... i miss bebe. haha! wala lng.
may laban eagles mya. goodie.. i have classes til 5, so asa nman db?
haiii. my life is beginnin' to suck big time...
Posted at 04:48 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
feedback: i agree, big time, that the Tigers were skinned alive
tigers, tigers, beat Ateneo?! ya right.
and here i go again. ang bias ko. haha! i just realized i have not
talked about last Sunday's game. Buti na lang daw di kami nanood. hehe.
sana nga eh.
well. 114-78, not bad. haha! i was even teasing my friend...di ko na
kilala mga naglalaro sa eagles...team b na ba yan?! joke! gosh, they
were "fantabulous" -- to emphasize and exaggerate, that is. =)
i love the back to back scores of chris, plus he did not miss a free
throw. JC's dunks too! graabe! the crowd -- euphoric siang
lahat...well, in ateneo's side at least. =)
haaai. sana makapanood na kami nina ye sa 2nd round!
Posted at 09:50 am by cyanotic
..now what??!
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